Monday, May 13, 2013
Ahhhhh, finally back to this space. I don't even have time to keep track with my life. I really love doing so if I have so much time to do so. I don't even anybody have this weird habit like me. Probably because my memory is so bad and I wanna try and remember and keep track of my life.So anyway! Back to life, I have been busy with exams. Exams one approximately a month? My last day of school was like 15/4 or so.. And I just ended my paper on 11/5 so can you imagine how fucking long is that? It is like one month long of studying and memorising. Sadly, this time was worse than before. I blanked out during my Service Quality paper and who knew that I ever would. After so many years and plenty of exams, I actually blanked out. Never in my life you knowwwww. How scary is that? I actually only need 34/100 to pass this module but I don't even know if I can actually get it. Why is it so scary? I mean by right I'm a marketing student and that is a marketing module. I understand it but how could just blank out... I can bullshit but you know that you need that few points to even be able to bull shit right? What's worse, for the last paper. Retail and Service Logistics, which had similar content as Service Quality. Like literally 30% is the exact same shit that I learnt. So by right it should actually be easier for me right? Nope... I blanked out on the "memorising day". I went to NLB straight for 3 days and wrote notes/ understand from like 11-9 without even being distracted at all. So in the end I only manage to memorise 1 chapter.
But thankfully, the first chapter came out for the first section which was 30/50. So I'm guessing I could pass at least. It's such a pity cause I actually scored quite well for the assignments. 17/20, 6.5/10 and 14.5/20. ONE FUCKING HD FOR BOTH SCHOOL TERMS. CAN I SELL IT?!!!! Hahahaha and I thought if I had worked hard I could at least get a D cause I don't even have 1. I mean I could only say that life sucks for me and life sucks cause I don't have a good memory. Or maybe not cause I guess I didn't study that hard.
Seriously, for the past few days I have been thinking of getting seeing a psychiatrist cause it has been so stressful that I broke down more than I did last sem. I need to be able to remember and it seems that the only out is to start early? I know everybody would say "Aiya I also will" But seriously, whether I memorize a few days before and end up not remembering what I remembered in the first place or I memorized a few processes, at night when Gabe test me, I don't even remembered it clearly.
Thankfully, G has always been around. Always cleaning my tears when I broke down. And he even stayed up for 2 nights before my exams just to make sure I won't have panic attack or sleep more than I should.
Seriously, so bad that I still can't believe that exams are over. Like really? I don't even have the relief feeling like before when exams are over cause I don't even know whether I'll pass that Service Quality paper but i really hope I do.... Hope I'll at least pass this and graduate on time cause Degree is really super taxing and stressing the shit out of me. Guess I'm really not a study material man.
Anyway on the bright side! So glad everything is over cause so many shit happened this sem. Team issues, fake and annoying people. I hope I've learnt through these lessons and start revising early and also start being a better person! Since it's the holidays, time for me to start being useful once again. Gonna clean up my room and start exercising cause I've thunder thighs :( I'm really not those sort of girls who keep complaining they are fat when they are skinny. But recently, I've been getting alot of comments from my family that my thighs are getting quite huge. Even my dad said jokingly "Don't see she skinny skinny, but her thighs quite big" and people saying that my body is importionate :( It doesn't hurt lah but I just feel that I need to do something about it? Like instead of going on a diet, I'm going to exercise instead. I think it is damn lame to go on a diet. Like what in the world? Did offend you or something? I mean cutting down and eating clean is fine but not stop eating completely. That's lame. But seriously, I won't even cut down or eat clean cause I'm so picky with food. HEH HEH
I'll be back soon ^^
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